Gaz

Wed, 13 Aug 2003 11:36:21 GMT

Hello world

Well it's not technically a Friday so i'm breaking my tradition of all of 3 weeks, however it is my last day at work this week!! Doing the exam results fun (hopefully) with Becka and the others tomorrow, then off to Cumbria on Friday. I like this. I wish I'd appreciated the place when I was stuck living there...

So stuff still pretty cool, weekend was good fun and smile was good. Went to the zoo and saw lots of fantastic monkeys and large guinea type creatures and other lovely animals. Didn't get to do much to the house which is bad, but will hopefully concentrate on that next weekend while everyone is at Leeds and things, and providing I don't get attacked by the biggest spider EVER again.

Work looking up as well, had a fairly busy week, was here until 10:30 last night but managed to sort lots of things like the Firewall out even if I may have to do the same next week due to BT not being able to get the Internet working. Plus I get paid the overtime :) Will inquire about a pay rise in the next couple of weeks I think, just to cover the added expense of the extra rent, but I'm doing ok, just by going easy on the spending.

I'm listening to strange music at the moment. Its nice tho. I like Peaches lots right now. And have gone back to Jack Off Jill. They have some truly beautiful moments especially when yr sitting alone in the dark.

So yes anyway I will go now and enjoy the third different type of cheese I have eaten in the last 12 hours. I need help...

Love to all

Fri, 08 Aug 2003 13:18:47 GMT

Hello hello

I'm seemingly getting used to posting here on Friday's now, probably to do with the fact I've run out of interesting things to do here at the end of the working week.

So all is pretty well, things have picked up this week. Spent a lot of the weekend working on the house, it's really getting closer to being as nice as it could be. Will probably do some rearranging and finishing off in my room this evening, as well as a few more things that need doing in the kitchen, and possibly clean the bathroom. Then onto the lounge, which will be a hell of a job. Will need to buy a few bits of furniture for it, but the real problem will be getting the carpet sorted out... I may just need to get it replaced full stop (anyone know how much a carpet costs?). But once that's done, and the kitchen door replaced (only about ?30), everything scrubbed, and a few scattered licks of paint, I might even stand a chance of getting the deposit back when I move out!!!

So that's occupied most of the week, but it's made me quite happy doing it all. Besides that, work is stupid but it isn't annoying me anywhere near as much as it has been, and I'm looking forward to a weekend of moderate rock. Started drinking some slight amounts of alcohol and practicing control, which is working quite well. Managed to get a lot of food and stuff from Asda last night for only ?50... that would have been nearer a hundred a couple of months back with the booze factored in. I have however appeared to have developed a rather worrying new addiction... the cheese! Not the healthiest thing in the world, but oh so tasty.

We're going on holiday next weekend which should be ace, to a nice looking hotel in Cumbria next to Derwent Water. This is somewhere I went a couple of times in my youth and remember it being very beautiful, so hopefully a couple of days away to relax and look at pretty scenery and maybe even jump in the lake should definatley be fun and soul soothing.

Still 102 minutes left here. Bum. Oh well, best go.

Mwah

Fri, 01 Aug 2003 10:35:49 GMT

Hello all

Sat at work and bored again, admittedly there's stuff I should be doing but I really need to avoid people right now as I'm in one of those someone says the wrong thing and burst out in tears type moods. Damn emotional fragility to hell. I was almost in tears on the way to work just because a Tanya song came on which isn't a good in the rush hour.

This has been a shitty week, but y'know what its like, altough I admittedly bought most of it on myself that's more depressing, not less so, for me at least. That said I've managed to avoid drinking myself to sleep as I was doing a month ago, despite the fact a whole bottle of vodka has been sat temptingly close to me all that time. I just need to master the entire going out and having fun thing without requiring alcohol (or finding the ability to be know what "moderate amounts" means again).

Ok so moaning over for the time being. Reorganising my house will begin tonight, which will be fun if I can find the energy, currently planning to start with either the kitchen or the bedrooms, and then move onto the lounge when I have space to move all that furniture about and a decent plan for how I want it to look. Could get a bit expensive, but should be worth it. Would be nice to maybe redecorate a couple of rooms completely but it depends on the landlord, and would rather not spend money on a house than isn't even mine... if I move out in a year it would be for nothing, but any furniture or stuff I buy can be taken with me. Oh and I'm hoping we can have a couple of nights like the old days, with everyone crammed on the bedroom floor in the big bedroom, you are of course all welcome...

Probably going on holiday in a couple of weeks for a long weekend, hopefully somewhere pretty and peaceful and with a beach. This will be nice, just avoid stuff for a while, and with a big of luck be more relaxed for it. I need to do more stuff like that I feel, y'know just mix life up a bit.

I want an aquarium as well. I love sealife and related things. I often think if I didn't have to worry about money and so on I'd become a marine biologist. Strange indeed.

I can go home in 4 and a half hours. My boss is of next week so I'm hoping to be able to do lots of things I'd usually have to ask him about using the excuse "you weren't here to ask". Should be interesting at least.

Ok going now
mwah

Thu, 24 Jul 2003 11:27:28 GMT

Hello people

Thought I should get back into posting on here because I have a bad habit, as with email, that when life gets weird I try to wait for everything to calm down before I start writing again. However this rarely if ever happens so there ain't much point.

So sat here at work at the moment, got virtually all outstanding work done (with the exception of a few pages of Internet application forms that hurt my head), listening to random WinAmp playlists and playing on the net. Waiting for my boss to come back so I can suggest some upgrades and so on which will give me something to do, and may drop subtle hints about pay rises (considering we've had a 20% increase in workstations, plus new servers and various other stuff since my last one).

Well the next couple of weeks are gonna be big ones I think, I can see a few events happening that will shape the next few months, so am hoping it all goes well. I shall be living on my own in 8 days, so am kinda looking forward to rearranging the house, cleaning up, chucking stuff out and so on, however am not looking forward to having to pay so much more, it's annoying me that I only tend to get about a month a year where I don't have to particularly worry about money. I'll give it a few weeks I think and see if I'm gonna need someone else in or if the extra money is worth the vastly reduced stress... but still if anyone knows of anyone who may be suitable, let me know yes?

So it's not really worth recapping everything, suffice to say life has been *FUN* which is important, although having a break for a few days since the Move festival has done me good, I've drank nothing but water for 10 days now so can hopefully continue to cut down on needless alcohol (blasphemy!!), which has definitely been taking its toll in many ways, and it's nice that I've been able to do it. Admittedly I haven't really been out in that time, and I wouldn't expect myself to sober on a night out, but it's good anyway. But i'm ready to rock now! Next week should be especially cool when people start returning as they have been missed.

I realised to my shock last night I'm closer to 35 than 15 which sounds bloody awful.

I'm listening to Pantera now. Rawk. Followed by the Pastels. How odd. I shall add how I absolutely adore Judge Yr'self, although it kinda hits home again how much the Manics have changed in that a song can appear from so long ago and just completely blow away everything else they've done for years... the gig was fantastic as well, although dropping Motown Junk is pretty much unforgivable.

Best be gone for now then,

Mwah mwah

Thu, 12 Jun 2003 16:40:35 GMT

what a depressing fucking day. get me the whisky

anyone want to occupy me tonight? no getting up early tomorrow so doing something would be good...

Wed, 11 Jun 2003 16:12:28 GMT

ahh well hello

stuck at work again waiting for people to go home so i can do a couple of 5 minute jobs. as you can see this can get very annoying and frustrating. managed to get lots done this week again which is good, hopefully get as much out the way as possible tomorrow. do want to go home now (or rather to see ma becka and have tea), pretty tired after the weekend and only got 5hrs sleep last night despite being in bed by 11.

so yeah, life has been pretty cool again, the weekend was crazymadrock stuff, definately can't manage that every weekend but it was certainly good, thanks everyone.

looking forward to the weekend lots now, i hope i shall be seeing as many of you as possible on friday, it should be great great fun. also if anyone knows anything fun happening on thursday, let me know cause what with no work on friday there should hopefully be a lot more options.

the morrissey documentary was absolutely fantastic. i love that man.

hmm ok then might start glaring at people who are still here :)

mwah mwah

grrr

Fri, 06 Jun 2003 11:05:29 GMT

its great when the company you work for gives you about a days notice that 4 new people are starting and they all need computers. grrr bad place. but it shall be fun i suppose and i get to spend lots of money but i could do without the pressure of it. fuck it what do they expect?

so yes i'm sensibly venting on here instead of working cause i night throw a hard disk at anyone who dares upset me.

had a very nice curry last night but am still feeling its somewhat powerful effects if you know what i mean. and generally a nice night.

but tonight is friday which means jack daniels and wrestling. oh yes yes yes. almost out of money now which is bad but probably get paid in a week which is very good.

probably best going down the shop and spending a few hundred quid. rock.

love to all xxx

Wed, 04 Jun 2003 14:06:51 GMT

Hello hello

Today am I sat at work without much to do and not much threat of any phone calls to tell me to do something (the random factor of end-user stupidity not being counted). This is good but also weird, so I think I may write a bit and then catch up on emails and such things.

Well the last couple of weeks have been pretty cool, a couple of good weekends being spent with good people, and generally feeling fairly happy with the way they are being spent. A few minor problems, some behaviour continues to perplex me, although in some cases exactly what I'd expect... a lot of things may have changed, but a lot of the situations seem all too familiar, just different people playing the parts.

Feeling old as well. Yes, I'm but 9 days short of my quarter century now, but it's not so much to do with that, more to do with the fact that the majority of the people I'm currently around are now in the same situation as me, that is, left uni, full time jobs and so on. The realisation of what "mid-20s" actually means overwhelms me an awful lot at points.

I've stopped drinking so much bloody coffee. A couple of weeks ago when I was putting the server in here I was getting through about 8 cups in the average working day. Now on tea but still too much of that. Trying to get exercising in an attempt to lose the half stone I put on in the last couple of months, plus a bit more. Might buy me a rowing machine. Hopefully my reduced booze consumption will also help with this, as this is something that must be done.

I wiped my computer and started from scracth again, it was somewhat stressful but will hopefully do it some good as its crashing and resetting itself and so on was upsetting me. I hope its nothing to do with the new processor but I have a bad feeling about this. It is also seriously in need of more hard disk space. Whoever thought 120GB wouldn't be enough? But at about 70 quid for a high end 80MB drive its hardly a killer these days.

So no real plans now until my birthday, may be out Saturday but may not seems as Becka isn't out either. Really depends what everyone else is doing. May just have to spend the weekend doing all the things I want to get out the way, mowing the lawn, washing the car and other such shit. Start storing the rock in my soul in readiness i suppose...

Just had to go and find an email about porn and forward it to one of the directors. interesting.

Becka just rang and her exam went well. Yay!

OK going for now, may write more, depends how bored I get in the next 2 hours.

Mwah

Fri, 23 May 2003 12:42:31 GMT

How can one simple piece of software make life so so so much easier? Graphs made by my database used to take about 10 minutes to generate, and now putting them on SQL and rewriting the code behind them I've managed to get it down to at most 10 seconds, and in some case instant!! Working on everything is so much easier now, I don't need to sit there 15 minutes waiting for reports to load just so I can edit them. With some more playing around, and hopefully a training course paid for by work, everything here will be running soooo well it'll be mad.

Anyway yes, moving on. Weekend but an hour and a half away, tonight for Iain's birthday should be good but have no idea what's going on yet. Still drinking way too much coffee and working really hard because I'm enjoying it for a change. Its nice being sat in my little server room.

Hmm was going to talk about life being weird but I'm not going to now cause I'm in a good and focused mood for the minute. Maybe later.

More work to do

Mwah mwah

Thu, 22 May 2003 10:18:51 GMT

Something else I forgot to mention

I finally think I fully understood what Fire Walk With Me was on about the other night. This is good. But then again, the fact to me it made vastly more sense than the uncut version I have the script for, also confuses me. But regardless, I enjoyed it a lot more than ever before.

Programming in SQL server is very annoying so far but I'll learn and probably never look back. Everything holding up ok with minor adjustments so far, although there has been one possibly major problem that could ruin the entire thing. But for the minute I'll put that down to someone elses stupidity. It's the best way.

You lot all look after yourselves yes?

Wed, 21 May 2003 14:57:29 GMT

I'm bloody exhausted

And still stuck here for another few hours. But after tonight when I get the new serrver up everything will hopefully be back to a gentle pace and I'll be able to take a day off without getting about 20 phonecalls from work.

Had a really lovely weekend, thanks to all involved.

I love Juniper Moon and my MP3 player and Vice City.

That's it for now

xxx

Vice City here I come

Fri, 16 May 2003 12:34:11 GMT

Wooooooo!!!

First shop I went in had it, nice shiny special edition 'n' all. Now just have to sit here on a computer that can't run it looking at its majestic beauty.

Yes i'm sad.

Fri, 16 May 2003 11:53:28 GMT

Ah i like friday's. I know its a cliche but I don't care.

Had a hell of a morning, our stupid email providers upgraded their stupid servers so I've been getting everyones mail cause they fucked it up, and it took me about 2 and a half hours to realise it wasn't my fault for once. They haven't even bothered to ring me up and tell me they fixed it, so I'll just have to sit here and wait and see.

If lunch comes soon I'll go for a drive and see if I can locate a copy of GTA: Vice City early so I won't have to go on the way home. Finally going to buy CD shelves as well. I like not having credit card bills to pay.

Tonight will be a lovely usual Friday consisting of alcohol, wrestling and people sitting around getting trashed. I love monday nights.

Ok lunch time. Steak and egg. Mmmm.

Thu, 15 May 2003 13:25:08 GMT

Hello

Someone got shot very close to my house last night. This is a little scary. Consdering we were walking very drunkenly along the very same bridge on Sunday morning at about 5am pissed out of our faces.

I just managed to kill the server at work again by pulling too hard on a wire. Rock 'n' roll.

I changed my picture again cause Beck said she liks this one and she knows all.

Burning all the films I've downloaded to works CDs now. Ha.

Will be here late so may add things later. Or may not.

Love to all

Tue, 13 May 2003 11:52:18 GMT

I just spent a long while trying to find a photo of myself for here where I didn't look awful and wasn't doing something that could get me arrested. So I went for this one of me and Becka cause I like the way it was taken.

Eating bacon and turkey baguette. Might go for a drive, not gone for a lunchtime drive for a while.

Tue, 13 May 2003 11:10:32 GMT

Hello

I decided I wanted a new journal for reasons that aren't quite clear. But hey who says they have to be?

The old one is here:
http://www.livejournal.com/users/gazereth
just for the sake of history, but it isn't particulary relevant now

Hopefully I shall do better at filling this one in but I don't know what sort of things I'm going to write yet, but no doubt it'll be overly long and everyone will get bored before they finish it. Oh well.

Anyway just going to post this so I can try and devise a pretty layout for it.

Byebye